*WARNING AND SORRY: Very long touchy-feelie post!!*
I have all of the above and so much more. I’m told everyday, not that I need telling; I have the best boyfriend I’ve ever had by far and couldn’t hope for anybody more perfect. He’s just gone home and as meh as I am about that, I’m still so bloody happy. I’m the happiest that I’ve ever been, I feel so filled with joy. I’m constantly on cloud nine, I can’t stop laughing and smiling, everything is more enjoyable. We literally spend hours on end just looking into each others eyes, being all lame and loved up…if we saw somebody like that in the street we’d both fake-vom. We started our relationship on such a rock solid foundation and the fact we’re best friends shines through and makes everything even better. We trust each other completely, already know most things about each other and do all of the above without even having to try. He turned up to meet me at hospital today for my cardiologist appointment despite me assuring him I was fine to go alone, he’s so sweet. We had such a wonderful day after that, like always, and we get to do it all over again every day for as long as possible (even when we’ve got uni/work/etc, time will always be made). We’re those ‘lame’ couples that hate even spending one night apart. Complete openness and honesty is amazing, I know he’d never lie to me and that there never needs to be a worry in my mind. He’s so hilarious I can’t stop laughing for long enough to breathe at times. We completely get one another 100% and basically have a hive mind, in the best possible way. We’re like all the wonderfully suited, adoring couples I’ve always wanted to be similar to (Marshall and Lily, Wash and Zoe, Han and Leia, etc…) I feel like he was made for me and he feels the same way. He makes me feel completely adored every time he looks at me or touches me and he constantly goes out of his way to ensure I’m well and happy. He comes out with the most beautiful, loving, romantic stuff, like what you’d hear in a love story or book. He’s a natural-born hardcore geek like me and we have so, so, so bloody much in common, it’s crazy. Even walking to the shops is the best of fun, we can lie in bed literally all day and it equates to a fun day out, everything is so enjoyable. Just…I’m not sure what I did to deserve somebody so fantastic and unbelievably ideal for me, but I’m glad I did it! All negative feelings about having moved to Sheffield for another person have now been eradicated; it was certainly an action made for the wrong person, but it has led me to the perfect one in the end. He makes me look back on previous relationships and think, ‘what on earth did I see in them and why was I with them for so long?’ Hindsight is marvelous. All I know is, we are both hugely loved up and no amount of anon hate that either of us receives matters a jot. We’re truly ecstatic with our situation and don’t need to change for one another, don’t have to pretend to be happier than we are, don’t have to look to people from the others’ past and try to be like them, don’t have to do things and make sly digs to spite others, don’t have to prolong it for the sake of it or anything else others do. I feel so smug and I don’t care, something truly amazing has happened to me and I’m going to bloody brag about it. It makes a change from my whinge posts anyway! He’s given me hope, a reason, every good possible feeling. He doesn’t even care that I’m piling on weight (seriously, it’s so bad, was weighed at the hospital today and, yeah…I’m over a size bigger, can’t fit in any of my jeans, not sure what I’m going to wear in the winter as I can’t afford more!) I doubt he’d care no matter how big I got, he loves me for me and I can tell that; same vice versa, I kind of see like a glowing golden light around him all the time, it’s odd. Actually feeling genuinely eager to divulge how perfectly blissful I am is such a strange feeling, compared to just making do like I did in the past. Ahhhhhhhhh. I don’t think I’ve ever been this in love, especially not so quickly (it’s been building for nearly 5 months mind you) so I apologise for being so openly thrilled about it. Also, I’m not being crazy and going over the top, he’s said the same and more to me (in fact did well before me, before we were even together, so shhhh. I never say it first as I always need to be as sure as possible at the time!) No part of our life is anything but the best and it all just seems like a beautiful dream. I really am such a loved and adored bear and by far the luckiest person in Sheffield, if not everywhere. He is too mind, but still :P All teh luvs!
SORRY IF ANYBODY READ THIS LOVED-UP DRIVEL!
Wow, this is just so bloody lovely and perfect, I don’t know what to say to it. Such a nice surprise to read after getting in. I love you so much, thank you for everything. xx